Today I dont feel like doin' anything....nothing at all

I have been struggling over the last three weeks to find my motivation to continue on with this weight loss journey. I don't feel like tracking (although i have been), I haven't been to the gym in three days (bigger deal than it seems when you go everyday), and would rather eat ice cream and candy than vegetables and whole grains....we all know lean proteins like poultry and fish are never wanted. I have officially lost my drive. I have been yo-yoing up and down between 180 and 182 for three weeks and it just seems like the stress of everything is getting to be too much. I feel like I need a break.....

This all brings me to wonder if you are allowed to take a break when you are "dieting".... I mean attempting to make a life style change. I would assume that if you want a break from dieting, you haven't made a lifestyle change. But I would also argue that the fact that I lost weight this pass week would mean that maybe at least something in my lifestyle is changing.

Here is what I have come to realize this month:

1. I want to eat ice cream everyday after dinner. If I select a weight watcher or skinny cow option this is fine but my weight loss slows down. I wanted to do this in order to keep "normal" eating habits that I could continue for the rest of my life. I have no intention of cutting out all sweets so if I want my weight loss to be permanent I should do things that can be permanent as well. For the record: permanent is apparently a word whose spelling will never be correct the first time I type it.

2. If I eat ice cream everyday I will eventually slip, so if I want to lose weight quicker I need to cut all sweets out. Great!

3. I am so sick of battling this debate in my head I want to take time off.

4. There is no time off if you are making a life style change.

UGH!