Sorry I forgot to add the results for the race and this weeks weigh in.
Moral of the story...Don't underestimate yourself.
Reason: When I registered for the race I decided to race in my age group of 20-29 instead of the the Athena group, which is for women over 160 pounds. When I registered I decided to do this because I wanted to race earlier in the herd, because last time I raced with the Athena group I finished almost last, and these TBF events are known for participants packing up and leaving as you are still racing. Since I hated having to run around cars trying to leave, I decided to race earlier with my age group. Now when I got to the race, I saw that there were only 11 people in my age group. This has never happened before and the idea that the top five racers in each group gets a winners plaque crossed my mind. Hmmm. I thought, I have a 50-50 chance of taking home a plaque. Then I realized the other ten participants in the 20-29 group were 22. Oh well I thought, not this year.
So I got into the swim area and took my place at the back of the swim heat so that I wouldn't be in the faster swimmers way when the clusterfuck of swimmers take the water. When the "Go" was yelled (no horn or gun to start us off) I waited for everyone to clear the path and then dove in. I proceeded to then pass all those "good, fast swimmers" swimming the best swim of my life. I got out of the water before half of them. Then it hit me...oh my god, i could get a winners plaque! I then cycled and ran my heart out to get that plaque that I have never even seen before because it has always been out of my league.
With all my hard work I came in sixth! That's right I missed my chance of a winners plaque by 40 seconds, the amount of time I let all the "better" swimmers go ahead of me. I was so disappointed in myself for not believing in myself. I could have had a cool award that I beat out six 22 year olds for, and instead I get to think: "Wow if I would have had more self-confidence I could have had an award." I may never get my chance to win again, and its all my fault.
So I walked away from the race both pissed that I let myself down, and excited that I had completed another triathlon. I finished in one hour and six seconds and felt like I could have kept going. I had a blast during the race and it defiantly served its purpose, Benny and I made a list of races to do all summer. It really was a good day. I learned that my body can recover after injury and I learned that I need to believe in myself or I'm never going to be in the winners circle.
WW Update:
Week one "back" and I lost 1.8 pounds. I was very pleased with this and hope to keep the ball rollin'
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